i’m two different people, you see.
trying to make it all work
in one body.

in one body that barely gets any sleep
in one body that doesn’t have time to eat
or drink hot coffee.

in one body that is overworked
because i carry all the burdens.

i carry them on my shoulders
i carry them right at the base of my skull
and then transfer them to one hip
as i balance you on the other.

and when i catch a glimpse of myself in the mirror
i cackle
because why didn’t my husband tell me
that my hair looked like bees swarmed through it
or that i had boogers on my shirt? (not mine … )

i want to be it all.
the fit mom
the healthy mom
the successful, working mom
the mom who writes.

but more importantly
i want to be a present mom
a loving mom a patient mom.
i want to know how it is possible
to fit all of this
in one body.

in the body of
the same woman
who just realized
her shirt
has been inside out all day.

In the trailer episode of Grace & Grit: Navigating Postpartum & Parenthood, I talk about the birth of my first daughter, Nora, and how my experiences throughout my postpartum period inspired me to write poetry, and, start a podcast about pregnancy, postpartum, and parenthood.

Click the logo below to listen to the trailer on Spotify. Click here to listen on Apple Podcasts.